Demotivated

Maybe you will say ...

just an intern la ... dun get mai dun get ...
Can always try next time ...
But ...

The matter is not get or not ... to me is more about appreciation ... and your value ... of existing in a society ... or group or environment ...
The fact is I don't mind trying ... and I will keep trying ... but ... that is especially hurting those who really have the heart ....

I used to ponder about these when I am demotivated ....
Nowadays ... I am more and more confused and not be able to understand how some so called "Clever" people do things ...

They can ....
1. Seems like throwing money on you for no reason on Earth ...
2. Throw you somewhere that make you cannot contribute your strength and at the same time training you to deal with what you are not good at for 10 years maybe less and then .... throw you to another place where ... you still cant contribute your strength .... but dealing with some other things that you are not good at... AGAIN
3. Be slow until .... the snail finish travelling from North pole to South pole oso they still struggling just to sort out the problem ... haven't even start to solve it
4. Give stupid reason that sounds very clever on their perspective on something stupid ... and then use power to shut u up from commenting ... or pointing out that they are wrong ... They can also use their deaf immitating skills to push all your words of their ears .... that's scary in a sense ... although it sounds stupid...
5. They are so kind until .... they are willing to give chances to those who are lagging and slow and uniwlling to try hard (lazy) ... so that those can really have 0.0001% chance to be good and be clever ...
6. In order to help those who are lazy to have high achievement .... those who are hardworking and clever need to train self to smile always even there is " shit " in front of them ... smile is still essential ....
7. They can have more than 90 degree of deflection .... compared to a prism ... realli superb ...

Nowadays ...
frust oso no use ...
Getting frustrating is better ....
but now ... I am not even frustrated, the feeling is worst than frustrated .... but dunno what kind of feeling is that ....
maybe towards shit ... we need to have "shit" feelings ...

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